Most ‘Before and After’ photos you see circulating magazines, TV and social media embrace extreme weight loss.  My ‘Before & After’ is quite the opposite and embraces Self Love and a life worth living. The picture you see before you embraces nothing but the  strength of Acceptance, Self Love and Peace. It emphatically captures a healthy mind, body, heart and soul.

The image on the left shows me at around 50kg, severely Anorexic, hair snapped off, barely able to stand up and nearly at death’s door after battling years of mental illness and Anorexia. In stark contrast, the image on the right shows a healthy me in 2014 after nearly eight years of recovery/ healing and a life saving weight gain of over 35kgs. There is not a minute that goes by that I am not thankful and blessed to be alive.

Eating three meals a day is the most natural and common thing in the world and yet for me, it was simply impossible. For over seven years I simply could not eat. My heart was linked to my appetite and it was broken, catapulting me onto the devastating and debilitating path of Anorexia, Anorexia Athletica, Addiction and Suicide. Not one morsel of food could ever be consumed and I welcomed Alcoholism into my life just to numb the pain of my heart. Thrashing my body with a trifecta of extreme exercise, fanatical starvation and heavy drinking became my everything while trying to conceal and mask the pain of my heart. For over seven years nobody, not even my family could pull me from the darkness and my insanity derailed into suicide.  In 2008, a beautiful  ‘Traumatic Blessing In Disguise’ pulled me from the wreckage that was my life awakening my unconscious heart.  For this I am dearly thankful.

The journey of life is guaranteed to be a beautiful, blessed roller coaster of both light and darkness and I am happy to say that in 2015 I am fully recovered.  In 2015, after nearly eight years of Healing, Acceptance and Self Love my heart and soul is free and I am blessed to not only be healthy but also alive.  The transparent account of my life highlighting country livin’, shearing and supporting mental health can be found in the rural memoir ‘Always On My Mind’ which is due for release in March 2015.  It is currently available for PRE-SALE from my BOOKS tab under BUY NOW xx

Happy New Year and I wish everybody a glorious 2015 of Self Love, Acceptance and Peace xx We only get one beautiful life so live each day as though it is your last. Forgive, Love and Accept everything that comes your way; even the darkness xx